I belief...just not enough to create change in my actions.
These two sentences sum up what I have been struggling with the past month. You may have noticed that I have not been on here much/at all. The reasons are many and varying. However, the root issue is pausing for self-examination. I was quickly working to grow this blog into something special, but realized that with all the posts, I was not changing personally at all.
My wife gave birth to our first son 6 weeks ago, and I was confronted with major holes in my spiritual life that I didn't know existed. Issues of patience, anger, know-it-all-ness, and many other issues. I realized that for all the advice I give on spiritual issues, I am not putting much into practice in my life.
A week ago I told a youth that his biggest spiritual problem was laziness. It hit me the next day: I set that example for him. I was lazy spiritually. I love the learning, I love the excitement of spiritual moments, but I disappear when it comes time to set into the long haul of running the race of Christ with endurance.
So today I set back into this blog with a new goal. I write not to share insight with you, but to seek sound biblical advice and practice for my life. I will share things that are helping me in areas of my life, and I will ask for your advice as well.
I have new goals in my life, please allow me to share them. They are all, in some way, spiritual in my mind.
- Set to the daily task of praying both conversationally and intercession-ally.
- Set aside a disciplined time of Scripture study, memorization, and reading.
- Speaking kind and uplifting words without sarcasm.
- Eliminate television and other media from my life that would not live up to my teaching standards.
- Read more.
- Seek ways to serve the community.
These are my goals. I am not wanting to take baby steps. I believe that God sent Christ to totally recreate me into what he always intended me to be, and so I am going to be sharing radical steps that I am taking in the next several days. Laziness is no longer something I can tolerate of myself.
Will you pray for me? Will you encourage me and give me advice as I seek it?