Dear God,
As I gather with your church, within your sacred walls of flesh community.
I do not see you.
I am too busy. I have to look for you afterword. I am too busy doing, thinking, looking, sharing, caring, shaking, smiling, hugging, hand raising, singing, teaching....
And I forget that you are in it all.
The old ones, Paul and Peter and countless others, they anticipated
You.
They looked for you, sought you, worshiped you, praised your grace, waited for you.
And you were there.
And you sent them.
And they saw, they noticed.
...So let it be with me.
Showing posts with label sunday. Show all posts
Showing posts with label sunday. Show all posts
Saturday, January 21, 2012
Monday, July 18, 2011
Sunday Thanks: Arms Wide Open
I don't know if it was fear or professionalism that nearly killed me.
It doesn't matter.
For three years and some I have attended this church I love, worked with their youth, and served alongside some of the most wonderful people I could imagine. God has moved in this place, and in me. He has moved me through the youth--their events, but more so their heart and spirit. The service I have joined in has changed me dramatically. My views of poverty, need, love, work, humanity (and many other things) have been altered as I've invested in God's service through this community of faith.
I held myself back. Even with all the greatness of God flowing around this church, I held back in one area. It is an area of passion, an area that fills fire in my bones and can come over me like a the rushing of a waterfall drenching my self with God.
I had become a silent worshipper. Oh, I sang--many in the church do. My body was silent.
You see, from the time I was little, I couldn't sit still. I have always used my whole self to express my heart--voice, arms, body, legs, emotions, tears. Everything. But here, no. I had become stone still.
Fear, conformity, or professionalism--I don't have a clue.
But something in my spirit broke down the chains the past couple weeks. As the music rose, so did I to God in worship--not just a voice, but me. Expressing to Him my joy in my own ackward, uncomfortable, whole self way.
Standing tall, shouting out, tears streaming, and arms wide open.
Other Thanks for this week:
1. The raw reality of life bringing deep questions: One in the life of a youth at LCOC, the other from a great blog post.
2. Finding common ground.
3. Realizing the implication of the resurrection of Jesus.
4. Counting how long I can stay underwater (just like when I was six!)
5. Pool parties with pizza
6. Singing the wrong words to Disney songs
7. The power of God to create a living Word for us.
It doesn't matter.
For three years and some I have attended this church I love, worked with their youth, and served alongside some of the most wonderful people I could imagine. God has moved in this place, and in me. He has moved me through the youth--their events, but more so their heart and spirit. The service I have joined in has changed me dramatically. My views of poverty, need, love, work, humanity (and many other things) have been altered as I've invested in God's service through this community of faith.
I held myself back. Even with all the greatness of God flowing around this church, I held back in one area. It is an area of passion, an area that fills fire in my bones and can come over me like a the rushing of a waterfall drenching my self with God.
I had become a silent worshipper. Oh, I sang--many in the church do. My body was silent.
You see, from the time I was little, I couldn't sit still. I have always used my whole self to express my heart--voice, arms, body, legs, emotions, tears. Everything. But here, no. I had become stone still.
Fear, conformity, or professionalism--I don't have a clue.
But something in my spirit broke down the chains the past couple weeks. As the music rose, so did I to God in worship--not just a voice, but me. Expressing to Him my joy in my own ackward, uncomfortable, whole self way.
Standing tall, shouting out, tears streaming, and arms wide open.
Other Thanks for this week:
1. The raw reality of life bringing deep questions: One in the life of a youth at LCOC, the other from a great blog post.
2. Finding common ground.
3. Realizing the implication of the resurrection of Jesus.
4. Counting how long I can stay underwater (just like when I was six!)
5. Pool parties with pizza
6. Singing the wrong words to Disney songs
7. The power of God to create a living Word for us.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)